I've been liking the cooler weather. Not so much that it's always damp. My clothes. The curtains. The atmosphere, but the cooler nights afford me a more peaceful sleep.
Here are just some of the things that have happened these past few weeks.
Happy Holidays! Hope you had a satisfying Christmas. Whether it was boisterous or a quiet affair or you prefer to skip over the occasion for reasons, it's all good. As long as you're happy. For me personally, it was the same as last year. Kids running around. The teens grouping in one corner. The parentals catching up/cooking/watching. Me and my sister - on the sofas. We did the get-together a couple of days earlier, so by Christmas eve I was pretty much over it.
And the brooding/anxiety/pity party in my head starts anew.
Let's take in the fact that it's a few more days 'til the new year. Days. DAYS. That fact is eating my brains out because life + career + expectations + reality isn't all what I had in mind by this time of the year. Sigh.
Listening to
The Weeknd's new drops.
Reading
Breakfast with Scot. I will get to it swear.
Watching
The end of the year fly by.
Loving
The cool nights.
Wishing and Hoping and Dreaming
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It's a secret. I decided to go the superstitious route this time. Talking and writing about it before hasn't made anything materialize so...
How was your Christmas? Get anything you really wanted?
xx,
CJ
PS. The post title was a reference to an old movie, shown in the movie Home Alone.
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Inside Out. Oh my God did anyone else get teary-eyed (or made silent waterfalls?) because I was trying so hard not to let my tears fall. Damn good movie. The morose parts for me definitely went over my younger siblings' heads. I can't wait for them to watch this again when they're significantly older. (I think it's an eldest child syndrome. Or just an older sibling thing.)
Listening to
Justin Beiber's Purpose and Selena Gomez' Revival.
Yeah I know. But they both have been making some pretty stellar tunes lately.
Purpose has a more house/techo "dance" type of beat to most of the songs and is definitely a more personal and introspective album. The lyrics are deep and mature.
Revival is a bit more varied when it comes to the sound, but Selena's voice is showcased in all her songs. They finally figured out that her voice works well with sultry and not too complicated when it comes to notes. Also has some pretty personal lyrics and great dance beats.
Recommendations:
Selena Gomez - Revival
- Good For You
- Camouflage
- Sober
- Same Old Love
- Hands To Myself (Sexy club sounds + Quiet sensual whisper-singing)
- Me & The Rhythm (Has a very 80's feel. So freaking good.)
- Survivors
- Rise (The talking bits reminds me strongly of early 2000 songs)
- Me & My Girls (Sexy Strong "Girl" Anthem. "Hispanic" vibes.)
- Perfect (Slow beat. For that ex who's moved on to another woman.)
Justin Beiber - Purpose
- I'll Show You
- What Do You Mean?
- Sorry
- Love Yourself
- Company
- No Pressure
- The Feeling (Like a Do I love you? or Do I love "love"? kind of vibe)
- Where Are You Now
- Children (Youth Anthem. Excellent dance beat.)
- Purpose (Great slow "ballad".With clips of Justin's very insightful monologue.)
- Been You
Reading
Breakfast with Scot
...Or bought a new book with the intention of reading it. I couldn't put it down at the store when I read the first few pages. I had to get it. I'm not usually into memoirs or biographies but this just rings my Feminist, LGBQT-supportive and "fuck-gender-norms" heart.
Read other people's reviews and the book's summary - Goodreads
Creating
This update post.
Wishing
For the clarity of mind to vote for best person for the Presidential seat. If not I feel like I wouldn't vote at all.
Hoping
For a big change career-wise before this December ends. *Offers up hair to gods.*
How about them people running for congress eh? For curiosity's sake who are you voting for? (Any position)
xx,
CJ
What's eating me is this very fascinating and entertaining 'eating show/eating broadcast/eating chat room.
"The Diva" one of the most popular meokbang stars in S. Korea.
Mukbang/Meokbang - is where people eat in front of their webcam and broadcast it across the Internet for others to watch. If the viewers like what they see, they allocate “star balloons”, which gets converted into money. People can earn several hundred dollars each time they broadcast themselves eating. The word mukbang is derived from the Korean word for eating (muk-ja) and broadcasting (bang-song). - via expansesocial
I'm not sure where it originated but it was popularized in S. Korea during the 2000s. It's essentially a web show where you watch someone eat and you pay them for how much they "entertain" you. Read: They get paid to eat. Where do I sign up?
Usually large quantities of food are involved but not always and not in every broadcaster. I believe what draws people in apart from watching someone eat are the sounds they make and how they eat it. It's not for everyone to be honest. Some people might even be turned-off by the excessively loud slurping noises and crunches these "BJs" make.
But man am I hooked.
I've watched a couple of more famous eating broadcasters and while they are fascinating, no one has held my interest for long, even if they did order 3 boxes of chicken with sides of fries, a box of pizza and a pack of canned coke.
Except this particular guy.
The way he eats is so inviting (sometimes shocking) and he always interacts with his viewers when he can (ex. when his mouth isn't full noodles+beef+lettuce+soup). And yes okay, he's cute.
This entertaining (and a tiny bit perverse) type of show doesn't always show just one person eating. It can be a group of friends or family. Or it can show someone cooking then eating what they cooked. Basically Mukbang would be a show where someone is eating period.
I hope I expanded your horizons today. Excuse me while I go back to Banzz' channel to watch him eat. And yes that does sound weird.
xx,
CJ
PS. The Mukbang phenomena was popularized at Afreeca.tv - a social platform similar to YouTube. It's a paid service wherein you anyone can buy virtual money to give to the broadcasters and be broadcasters themselves.
If you've been slowly but surely bombarded with random Christmas songs at the store, at the mall or radio then you know Christmas is upon us. It's not as worse as November wherein after the first week every single day, wherever you go there will be a yuletide jingle playing. *Let's get through October - and its holidays- first shall we?*
That's when you realize that a year has gone by and think what the hell I'm still here? But I am glad I've been consistent with my posts. My subconscious probably decided it was finally time to review the rest of my shit that's just sitting here.
Reading
I have been reading a lot of ebooks lately. Mostly fanfics. Actually only fanfics. But omg it's so hard to find one wattpadd ebook that has good grammar and a clear pov (I've read ebooks that switch from first person to third person omniscient without warning)
Listening to
Watching
Rick and Morty Season 2
If you're into Adult Cartoons (Family Guy but leagues better) and/or Adult Swim on Cartoon Network. This is god-sent. Despite the obvious stupidity it's smart and adresses t....just watch the fucking show.
Thinking
How people can be so close-minded as to hate the word feminism. There are some extremists who take it too far (that's why they're called extremists) but isn't that much more reason to rally and support the cause more so people know what real feminists (people who support the social, political and economic equality of ALL -yes LGBT too- sexes) look like?
Wishing
That people stop hating the word Feminism and using the term "Feminazis" to describe women who whole-heartedly present personal, deep and passionate encounters and thoughts they have on the matter. Discounting the whole movement because of extremists (which a lot of political, economic and social groups have) is not only unjust but perpetuates the thought that we don't need equality and all feminists are spouting nonsense, non-issues and just want to burn their bras all day and kill men. You know just because.
Wearing
My favorite gray shirt and cycling shorts. Thinking of doing yoga before I sleep...hmmm
Loving
My consistency with writing! Yay!
Needing
A massage!
Feeling
Neutral. But a little happy. Happy-Neutral?
xx,
CJ
READING
A lot of Hello Giggles' articles, Buzz Feed, Up Worthy and Refinery29 again linked from Facebook. I always read their stuff but I just recently realized that a lot of what I read since time immemorial were from these particular sites.
I used to read a lot of Thought Catalog but it got a bit too "whiney" for my taste.
WATCHING
THIS.
Spoiler : Yes. She never gets an actual answer. She's so much better off without him but that doesn't make what they had any less real.
LISTENING TO
Honestly, why are people hating on him still? He was a douche. But we have to realize that he was young, he's got a ton of money and he was thrust into the limelight at a very very young age. People seem to forget that he's actually very talented. I just like that he's doing music still and it's very... now.
I like it. Especially the beat.
THINKING
About volunteering. I already submitted the forms so I wouldn't have to think too much over it (and/or chicken out while thinking).
FEELING
Light. I just submitted updates to a project I'm doing for a client and it was stressing me out the past few weeks because I was continuously putting-off doing it. That and I wasn't excited about the project. What can I say I'm very
WANTING
A shit load of money to fund my early retirement to the beach/forest.
NEEDING
Or feeling the need to watch Hoarders. It's sad, scary and all too real. But I can't help watching their conclusion.
WISHING
To finally [finish the project so can get the moneyz] to book the ticket to get me to the beach where my friend's at.
xx,
CJ
